Theres still time to salvage everything and make amendments bc new year AGAIN!!! Also, because haven’t really been living up to the old one. So here, New Year New Me new and improved version.
1. WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU DOESNT MATTER
This was in the other post but I think its one of the hardest to actually follow. Like literally, people are too self absorbed to care about you so that little embarrassing squeal that you released is not going to linger in that cute boys mind for more than 7 seconds. The world doesn’t revolve around you and usually you exist as a fraction of someones thoughts A VERY SMALL FRACTION.
2. SUNS OUT, PHONES in my pocket
I need to stop being on my phone 24/7. Its getting out of hand. Gonna try either airplane mode/ no 3G when I’m around company. (but I’m allowed to touch my phone once in a while in class, Aliff)
3. STOP BEING A HYPOCRITE
I get annoyed with other people for stupid things like blue-ticking me BUT I REALISED I DO IT TOO and I’m hiding behind my jailbreak functions because they don’t get to see me blue tick them. So even though I said less phone time, when I actually DO reply people, I need to really reply everyone properly and not be selective.
4. BE OBSERVANT
Jo, Evan and Kim are really good at observing and remembering the little details which makes them really good friends (and present buyers). I need to STOP DRIFTING and be more aware of the things going on around me. Like I know Matt is a C paddler but IS HE A LEFT OR RIGHT PADDLER?? (left, I checked last training – but only bc I thought of this post, if not I wouldn’t have noticed at all).
5. BE NICE, BE YOU
Hate it when people display favoritism and exclusiveness, and I can’t be like that either. So new resolution to be nice to everyone, no being mean to someone bc we’re not close. Used to live by “Do unto others what you want others to do unto you” but started to realize that no, why should I be mean to you just bc you’re a douche to me. Just be nice to everyone, if someones an asshole, then be the bigger person. You don’t have to be exceptionally nice to that person, don’t let him or her trample over you but ya be nice.
I met someone last year at the canoe welcome tea who I thought would be super prejudice but turns out she was supeerrrr nice and caring even to the weird me. But over the past year, she’s changed (or maybe she’s just revealed her true self) but she’s become more cynical, more judgmental and more arrogant….its a pity.
Family comes first. Sometimes I get so caught up with wanting to go out with friends, to maintain the relationships by being present at the outings that everyone else is at. Its true that if you don’t usually go for the outings, you tend to get distanced but ugh. Also, I promised the school all I would do is study canoe and study but don’t think Im really living up to it.
7. STOP TRYING SO HARD
JC is hardddd so many relationships to develop/maintain etcetc. Maybe I need to just go with the flow….dont really know how to go about this point but I just need to know I need to stop trying to be everyones puppy dog, buying them food/presents/granola etcetc. I know its not about me, its about making other peoples day, but if they don’t appreciate it then whats the point….doing them an injustice by feeding their ego.
Also need to stop being someone I’m not because if people like me for who Im not..will they ever like who I am? lol. Too bad if boring me doesn’t pique their interest. ( I say too bad but inside I’m gonna be like asfghdghjljk but I’ll try)
8. BE MORE FEMININE
Less swearing, more sitting like a girl…less trying to be one of the guys, more being..a girl haha
Ok I’ll end it here because I can’t remember anymore…is this too many things for a new years resolution? Whatever, the more the merrier, maybe I’ll add more if anymore pop up.