“To be completely honest,
I had my doubts that my mind would ever shut up about you
from the very first time that I met you.
You sat next to me,
and I felt tickles up and down my spine.
You looked at me,
and I heard birds in my mind.
You smiled at me,
my heart ached.
I hadn’t felt this way in a long time,
many a time this ‘feeling’ led to disappointment,
– cold, hard, and strong.
We became friends, (and I’m ever so glad)
You told me not to wear my heart on my sleeve,
I told you not to be afraid to love and trust.
We were total opposites,
in our mindset of love, truth, and grief.
As of now,
all I can do is long.
Long for you:
your hand in mine,
your heart for me,
your lips on my forehead as you bid me goodnight.
I want you to bring me close,
(unlike how you do now – in a platonic way),
and let me hear your heartbeat below your chest bone.
I want to love you,
better than you were ever loved.
I want you to love me,
like you’ve never been in love before.
It doesn’t help that you were hurt before,
a searing tear that I know even I don’t have enough to fill.
I say that you deserve somebody better.
Better than her,
– seemingly, better than me.
if you ever fall for somebody else,
I want to promise you that I will catch you if she doesn’t.
I don’t want you to scape your tan knees against concrete pavements anymore.
If you ever fall for somebody else,
I’ll try to love the other parts of you that she can’t,
so maybe you can feel whole again,
even if just for a moment.”