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ITS TOO LATE

Feeling extremely, exceptionally, incredulously, remarkably, terribly, immensely depressed. Depressed sounds too intense…more like a sian.

Sian puts everything into context.

 Everyone else is so high, I have no energy for anything

 When I am high, other people are always higher 

 I ruined a perfectly fine friendship because I was insecure 

 Scratchy voice + creepy highness = weird classmate  

 

 

 

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I need a hit, baby give me it

Is my self esteem low or what. Haha constantly need reassurance and affirmation in everything I do. And omg have I told you how many embarrassing things I have done in the past 7 days?! WHO RUNS OFF AT THE MRT STATION JUST TO CATCH A FRIEND IN FRONT. The hell, I didn’t even say bye to my friends properly and just dashed off !!?!?!?! AND I HAD A FRIEND GOING IN THE SAME DIRECTION?! ALL THIS JUST TO CATCH ANOTHER FRIEND THAT WAS REALLY FAR INFRONT. Nicole Chia what are you doing, why are you running around being awkward and embarrassing. #ultimatepaiseh 

 

its dangerous, I’m falling 

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A Perfect Storm

~ theres no going back ~

We’re out of MG and there’s no going back to being an MG student. But once an MG girl, always an MG girl.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE, WE HAVE ENTERED JC. Its VERY DIFFERENT.

1) Assembly is in the hall

2) with aircon

3) and chairs to sit on during devotions

4) They say ‘good morning college’ now…no more good morning girls ):

5) NEW PEOPLE

6) Unknown hallways

7) Different canteen food

8) LECTURE THEATRES THAT ARE HUGE

9) new school cheers

10) new uniforms

etcetc

IM IN AN UNKNOWN WORLD but I’m not lost because of my lovely OG mates.

Introducing….. CYBORG

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New Prospects

Not to be a wet blanket but school starts in 2 days and I’m feeling SUPER apprehensive. When the time comes, I’m going to get up while the sky is still pitch black, put on my school uniform, drink my morning milo and drive down to the school I’m posted to. Just like everything in life that we don’t want to face, eventually the time comes and we simply…face it head first. 

Jc is a whole new world. We’re entering new territory. Taking subjects we’ve never taken before or taking subjects that we have taken before at extreme depth. Then theres that whole boy thing (ha ha ha). But seriously, I don’t know if I’m excited or scared. Excited for the new prospects or scared because….I’m not great at making new frenzies < u see I said frenzies. What CCA do I join? How do I introduce myself? Are they gonna make us do embarrassing things during orientation? wa pa pa pow pow pow pow pow sing (feel like having chicken rice now..cause pow sing… get it?) 

ANYWAY WHAT DO I DO. PLUS I STILL NEED TO WRITE THE ESSAY AH AH AH AH AH AHHHHHH.